Fears

I made a list of my fears. There were many. MANY.

Some fears I am aware of - fear of the ocean, fear of chemicals in my food - and some fears are hidden. But all of them affect my life.

I need some of these fears to keep me safe. But most of my fears are old, outdated, unnecessary, and inhibiting. I no longer want to be ruled by them.

So I have been working on digging up my fears, looking at them, questioning their validity and necessity, and releasing those that no longer serve me.

This is not an easy task.

First I need to be conscious of the fear. Some are easy to spot - fear of spiders, fear of horror films. I am very aware of them. Many of these are legitimate fears and easily avoided. They do not interfere with my life in a big way.

Some are not easily found. They are buried deep, under layers of other fears, beliefs, and teachings. I don’t want to dig around in my psyche in the darkness. I don’t want to look at these fears. They are too scary.

But I have found that digging up my fears is liberating. I usually ask my spirit guides to be with me - they make it much less scary. Then I do the work.

I look at the fear. I allow myself to feel it. I really feel it in my body. I acknowledge it. Then I release it.

That’s the goal. But releasing a long-held fear is not always quick or easy. There may be a lot of history, a lot of emotion that comes with it. It can take me a long time, and sometimes it comes up again in a different form. Some fears can have lots of layers. I know from experience, though, that every time I clear even a little out, I open myself up to a little more Light and Peace. And the next time it comes up, it’s a little easier to eliminate that next layer.

I have many fears - some are helpful, some are ridiculous, some are terrifying. But the more aware I am of them, the more I examine them, the more I can let them go and live a more unencumbered life.